The scales are tipping, back and forth. All is being weighed, every thought, every feeling, every action – compassion or resentment, joy or sorrow, tipping the scales. There is an acute awareness of all coming to the surface. Parts of yourself that have been hidden are being forced up and out into the light. Mortality is staring you in the face as choices stand before you.
You are being pushed, prodded, uncovered and revealed. You feel uncomfortable and uncertain. You wish for a time of balance and simplicity but it is nowhere to be found. Your inner truth is all that matters, your truest self, in all it’s imperfections, all of you, all that has been pushed under, all that hides from the glaring light.
Just when you think you have gotten the hang of this balancing act after all the seeing and all the dreaming and all the revealing ….. it leads to this. There is no escape from the work to be done, no avoiding, no putting it off. We are in it. We are living through it. We are it. We are awake and aware and feeling it all. It can be brutal in it’s intensity.
Those of us with such sensitivity have come this far and yes found more of a balance, so not to be crushed by the weight of sorrows too unbearable to bear. We have come so far we can feel it. We are living it, more aware, more steady as we go, more sure, just enough that we seem to have kind of gotten the hang of it.
But the scales must still tip, back and forth, more sorrows, more joy, more awareness, more hidden. It is a game of mastery and we are the master players. We have gained strength and courage and wisdom. We have opened to see beyond the beyond. It is thrilling and daunting.
We can close our eyes when it becomes too much but they cannot stay closed for long. Our inner truth compels us to keep seeing, to keep believing, to keep traveling on, to face the new challenges with new eyes, no matter how tempting it is to see with the old ones.
We are warriors of truth. We are being called upon to take on incredibly difficult challenges. We are transmuting and transforming enormous unprecedented energies. We have made it this far.
Don’t give up.