we agonized, we cried out, we fell to our knees
the men were gone
fear had overtaken them
I can only speak for myself when I say
I had no fear
not for me
the unbearable witnessing
of such things done to him
you could only be with him
of him
each step was mine
each time he stumbled
the weight of the cross
the taunts
it was a mob scene
I saw nothing but him
I felt I would not live through it
such was the overwhelming feeling
of being one with him
and even in this
I know it was a comfort to him
for he could feel my agony
and he could feel my infinite love
so I walked this way of the cross
and I tell you in complete truth
I hung with him on that cross
and on that day I was aware
of somehow relieving him
in ever the smallest way
for I absorbed his sorrow and I felt his pain
and with all my heart and soul sent him
the radiant burning love
that was transforming within my heart
and this he felt
and this he understood
it is impossible to make known the bitter gall
of that most sorrowful day
for there are no words to describe
the depth of his physical suffering
and the agony and beauty of being witness
to his magnificent forgiving heart
only the glory of his Resurrection
could ever ease the pain
for it would take something so miraculous and divine
to fill your heart with light and love once again
it was an honor and a blessing
to stand with the women
the ones who saw nothing
but the truth of heaven before their eyes
and we lifted him with our prayers
and we sustained him with our love
and it was our faces he did see
in these most brutal and terrible moments
and the power of unspeakable acts
and the glorious message of forgiveness
burned in our hearts all the days of our lives
may this message come alive in your hearts
and may his life be testimony
of heaven and of earth
from The Heart of Love: Mary Magdalene Speaks
Gail Swanson
The Heart of Love 