Saying Goodbye to Peter Cottontail

Lila and her best friend Petey

So we said goodbye to our beautiful boy, our beloved companion on this journey, our sweet dog Petey and wept buckets of tears and woke up the next day to the shock and reality of a new world without him. That day was very hard. Anyone who has lost a beloved friend knows how this goes. There is no escaping the grief. You just have to go through it. Any experience of grief seems to bring back all the losses and all the grieving you have ever done in this life and so many others. It is almost unbearable and yet we survive.

The saving grace is our belief in the knowing that there is something more than this physical life and so I share this little story that will have no end because the love and the connection and the messages will continue on.

As we sat around our bed with our boy for the last time, tears flowing, I wiped my tears with a tissue and happened to look at it. Perhaps someone else would not notice such a thing but when you believe and are open the doors to Heaven open wide and loving messages are received.

The angels were all around Petey waiting to guide him to Heaven.

Yesterday was the first day waking without him and although we tried to keep busy the heartbreak was just overwhelming. Then this message arrived from our daughter Kate. She and my grandson Elijah had been at the bedside the day before saying their goodbyes to Petey. Elijah is only six years old and had a deep bond with Petey seeing him almost every day. He was so brave saying his goodbyes. I showed him the angel tissue and we all marveled at how unmistakable and incredible it was and it helped us to have this sign.

So that next sorrowful day Kate had an experience she couldn’t wait to tell me about. She was crossing over her front yard and almost tripped over a bunny. The bunny did not move so she thought he must be injured. She spoke to him and he took a little hop and seemed to be ok. She has never seen a bunny in her yard and lives on a busy street so it was highly unusual. Kate said he allowed her to come so close she could have touched him. She ran inside to get my grandchildren Elijah and Lila and thought the bunny would probably be gone by the time she got back. The bunny was still there.

They all stood very close to him and spoke to him as he sat there so unusually peaceful with no thought of running away. Kate kept taking pictures of him. It was daytime and there was no flash but somehow the eyes kept coming out as if there were a flash. After a time it suddenly hit her that this is Peter Cottontail! She remembered how I always sang “Here comes Peter Cottontail” when my Petey would come walking into the room. Kate was sure this was our Petey come to say he was at peace.

When she sent me the photo I said “What is going on with this bunny’s eyes?” Kate told me she kept saying the same thing when the photos kept coming out with the eyes looking so strange. Well Petey was blind and his eyes did not look quite right so this seemed to be yet another sign that this Peter Cottontail was giving us a message from our Peter Cottontail. This bunny sat and waited there for my grandchildren who loved Petey so much and allowed them to talk with him and be so close to him. We feel that the peaceful nature of this bunny was letting us know that Petey is at peace and is with us always.

photo by Kate Dawson

I believe.

First thing I saw on Facebook this morning was a picture of a bunny.

I know my boy is in Heaven and can see once again running with his best friend Wiley, Elijah’s dog who left us not too long ago.

They were the best dogs in the whole wide world.

We will all be together again one day.

Thank you.

We love you forever and ever and ever.

To be continued…..

 

 

 

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What if you absolutely knew that your suffering was a divine transmutation process?

What if you knew that your overcoming saved someone’s life?

What if you are the most powerful being transmuting the most important and significant energies for the planet and beyond?

What if nothing is what it seems and the angels are constantly rejoicing at your courage, fortitude and faith?

What if just the knowing and believing magnified the power to change anything?

What if the less you thought and the more you felt brought you more into alignment with your true spiritual nature?

What if you absolutely knew that this is the time and what you do from this moment on has a greater effect than ever before?

What if only some of us remembering will tip the scales in favor of Heaven?

And what if love really does conquer all?

I Believe

Great suffering is generated as a consequence of the world going through great transformation. In the midst of this the ability to sustain our lives and strengths must reside in our trust in the Supreme Being who is God.
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John of God

When I was going through a period of great suffering I prayed every night for help. The answer came. I was to go to Brazil to see John of God. It seemed impossible for so many reasons but I knew I must go and I did in August of 2014. It was a life changing experience.

John of God came to me in a dream recently. He told me I must come back. Since then he has been showing up everywhere including a new documentary about him.  https://aquesttoheal-beyondthephysical.vhx.tv/products/a-quest-to-heal-beyond-the-physical As I watched the documentary I was struck by an image of the triangle that is on the wall in the Casa in Brazil. This is where people place their requests and prayers and lay they foreheads inside the triangle. I took a picture off the screen of the triangle and to me there is no mistaking that an image of Mary the Blessed Mother has manifested where the people place their foreheads.

I believe.

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Healing – I Am a Work in Progress

This has been a day of healing. This has been a day of waking early to go through a kind of life review while trying to go back to sleep. As all these events passed through my mind I felt all the emotions of each event. I could not fall back to sleep and I was already exhausted from lack of sleep from the day before. Loss of sleep mostly always results in a health episode that is very unpredictable.

The next thing that happened was seeing a Joan of Arc post I had written last year on this day. I did not remember writing it but I remembered immediately that Joan of Arc had passed through the parade of events I had experienced in the early morning hours. This was starting out to be quite a day.

Right after that I came across a post from a well known author and found that she has had a chronic illness for thirty years. So have I. As I read through her posts discussing all the aspects of what this entails it struck me.

Here she was a successful writer, writing all these beautiful books and articles and posts and just as easily discussing her life with this illness. She talked about being thankful that she is a writer and can write from her bed when all she can do is surrender to the bed. She talked about being too ill to write at all. She talked about being unreliable in not being able to show up at the last minute. She talked about all the grace that can be found in an experience like this. She talked about wanting a cure and the surrender that must come when one does not come. She talked about healing without being cured. She talked about it all. She talked about me.

So here I sat, tears flowing with several invitations in emails that I must answer, beautiful invitations that I wish to attend but know that I may not. And here I sat with events coming that have been a dream come true for me and prayers sent up to please allow me to feel well and attend. And I realize so deeply how I have been trying to hide in a way from just being the whole of who I am and speaking the truth of what needs to be said.

I have put a terrible pressure on myself and caused myself more suffering in the worry over how and if I will be able to be present to things that mean so much to me and to the people that mean so much to me. I am facing today that I find it embarrassing to have to speak the truth of why I may not be.

I have been wounded by judgment and opinions and I have judged myself harshly as well. My work is within the spiritual community. I want to be out there. I love what I do. I have surrendered over and over and I have risen to the occasion when I thought I could not. Truth is I would rather be the person who rises to the occasion no matter what because after all that is what a divine feminine warrior does or so I tell myself. It is also true that I rise and resurrect myself every single day as every person with an illness like this knows.

So why am I writing this? I have written on the subject of illness before including the higher spiritual view but this is what I have been dealing with on the down to earth every day level. I am writing because this is what I do and this is who I am. I am a writer. I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a grandmother and a divine feminine warrior. I am a million things rolled up into one wild, dramatic, sensitive and very funny girl. I am also an open book about just about everything so it was time to face this and let it all out. I am writing this to heal the shame that I am facing today. I know that this whole day has been divinely guided and I try my best to be awake and aware to what I am shown.

What I deal with every day physically is a huge part of who I am. I have a belief and a knowing that nothing is what it seems and all is for a higher purpose but still we must go through it all here on earth. I am blessed beyond measure with a family who loves me and understands and has never made me feel less than for any of it. I have done that to myself.  My closest friends know the very worst of it and I am so thankful for them.  It is what I am to the outside world and my work that I have put this pressure upon myself.

I am a work in progress.

This was a big day with an opportunity for so much healing from the minute I opened my eyes. For this I am ever grateful.

More to come….

 

Warriors of the Rainbow

artist Thomas Blackshear

When magic is happening all around you and your belief in everything is constantly reaffirmed everything looks different.  Today is one of those days filled with magic and confirmation.  If you believe you can see it all.  I feel deeply deeply thankful for these eyes that see and for all the loving guides who are with me every moment.

Today my photographs were filled with rainbows.

 

And butterflies

Butterflies in Divine Union

And in between there were incredible images like this

And then you come onto your Facebook and the first thing you see is this Warriors of the Rainbow image and well I just don’t think any explanation is needed.  But maybe that’s just me   🙂

Belief

Shelley Sage Heart

If I told you this story would you believe it?

Could you believe the time of an ancient wound has come again?

Would you believe the visions and the confirmations?

Would you allow yourself to dive deep into the archetypal wound?

Would you understand that believing is half the battle

And truth is the only answer no matter how far you must go?

These are the times of great transformation.

This is the time of the great remembering.

The crucible of love is carried forth in your hearts.  The pain and sorrow of past injustices are being transformed through each loving word and deed.  As the past merges with the present, physical and emotional bodies respond.  There is so much that you carry, so much you transform. 

The conscious awareness of your soul’s purpose, the knowledge that you have come again to aid in this most transforming time magnifies the outcome of each mission.  As past injustices merge with present injustices you respond with an awakening, an awakening of remembrance of all that has gone before and all that feels familiar in your lives and your world of today.

And as you perceive and awaken, and as a betrayal or injustice today brings back those of times past, you feel, you weep, you cry out, and you may fall.  Then the power within rises, the feminine power of love, the feminine power of strength, the alchemical magic awakens and rises with a power and strength stronger than the past, more powerful than a memory or injustice of today. 

And as the power rises within, and as you feel, acknowledge and respond, you choose the path of the spiritual warrior with a feminine strength present throughout the ages.  For you are bearers of truth and soldiers of freedom.  And through your awareness so vigilant and so true, through each conscious kindness, each voice raised in truth, you transform one by one, a hardened heart or bitter injustice.  Yes the task is mighty and the road long, and you have walked this path again and again but I ask you now to feel in your heart, the power of love and the root of forgiveness.  For only these shall usher in the New World, only these shall move you into the fullness of your true spiritual nature. 

Walk the path with your head held high feeling and knowing your power and strength.  Know that battles once fought for truth and for freedom carry you forth in this time and this place.  Feel the protection of your spiritual armor, carry the sword of truth and enlightenment.  Work your alchemical magic as you transform and transcend all worldly concerns.  Bring forth the balance of masculine and feminine, the strength of the armor and the beauty of love.   

Know,  that which you endure and overcome shall strengthen you…. and that which you forgive shall free you.

Joan of Arc

Received by Gail Swanson