And through the darkness
there is a point of light
radiating colors of love,
mercy, healing and hope
straight into your heart
And through the darkness
there is a point of light
radiating colors of love,
mercy, healing and hope
straight into your heart
I took this photograph just the other day and I have spent many hours gazing at it and feeling the energies. All the images are amazingly beautiful and powerful and I believe each has one has its own vibration and message. This one feels very special to me.
Imagine that these incredible light emanations are always surrounding us bringing us love, healing and divine sustenance. Imagine that they come in all colors and forms bringing us exactly what we need and the knowing that we are not alone.
If you allow yourself to breathe in this beautiful gift you will feel the angels. I believe meditating upon this with a pure heart can connect you with your guardian angel. These are the little miracles we should be focusing on and communing with for these are the ways we increase our light and remember who we are and what we are capable of.
I once saw a great shower of light raining down on Jesus and Mary Magdalene. They were aware of it. They knew what was happening and what the heavenly light was providing them. It was their saving grace and it is ours.
Can you hear it?
the atmosphere is alive
with love and hate
war and peace
the past, the present, the future
the geometry of the universe
a universal language
we are the receivers
the tuning forks
you are breathing it in
in every moment
breathe with the awareness
that you are a cosmic transformer
the atmosphere is filled
I saw one before my eyes
as we evolve
and become aware
aware of the sounds of the universe
and all that lies just beyond
what we ever thought possible
to see, to hear, to know
we foster in a new way of being
a new world
it is here
the atmosphere is filled
and love is vibrating
louder and louder
can you hear it?
Most of the time I feel as though I am not really completely here in this world. There are several reasons for this. One is due to the fact that no matter what I do I am never grounded. Once when a healer was attempting to ground me I felt as though I was being shocked over and over. He later told me he was given the information never to ground me but only to connect me to Venus. That should be a good enough reason to feel as though you don’t belong here and feel as though you are not completely here but there is another reason that intensifies this feeling even more.
I seem to have a foot in several worlds. One is beyond everything here and allows me to have all kinds of otherworldly experiences. The other is an illness that has been ever present for more years than I would like to remember. These are two very intense experiences going on at the same time.
The illness was the catalyst that forced me to leave my entire life behind and propel me into the world of healing. I learned many things in this new world. First I had to learn if I had the courage to make this journey. I was frightened and lost. I had no compass. I found that sometimes I had great courage and sometimes I had none. I continue this journey to this day and pass in and out of some very dark passages and also into places more beautiful than I ever could have imagined.
I have been given divine glimpses into the purpose of the physical illness and have been told the same exact thing by several mystics who I love and admire most in this world. I have been shown and told things that have been very challenging to understand and more challenging to live. I understand that nothing is what it seems.
Over these past months the challenges have been almost too much to bear. I write this today for those who are also feeling this way. The circumstances do not matter. Whatever we are going through in our own physical lives in many cases is being magnified as the world around us squeezes through the eye of the needle. We are being purged and sanctified.
It is a lonely journey. It is not for the faint of heart. Glimpses of heaven are beautiful and miraculous and still we must make it here through each day. Our faith is being tested as we bear witness to one heartbreaking event after the other. Where is it all heading? Some are so sure of the who what where and why. I am not so sure of anything except I must use everything I have to keep on keeping on.
The mysteries I have been shown about physical suffering go way beyond anything I could have ever imagined. When I lose my way I am reminded in ways that are impossible to ignore. I am living the mystery.
Here on earth I am a partner in life to the boy I made a vow to when I was nineteen. He is the embodiment of unconditional love. I am a mother and a grandmother. I am a mystic and a recluse. I suffer greatly in the physical in ways I never could have imagined and soar to the heavens in ways I never could have dreamed. Sometimes it feels like a blessing and a curse. When the mind tries to take me over I come back to what I know to be true. These are the days when the darkness upon this planet is doing all it can to take us down. These are the days we were made for.
Each time I find a way to rise again and again I think of all of you. I think of all we are all going through and remind myself that as lonely as this all feels we are not alone. There are legions of angels and loving beings here with us in every moment. We are going to make it. We rise together.
The meaning of the dream just came to me.
I dreamed this right before I woke up this morning.
I come upon a crystal clear body of water and I reach down and pull up a small crystal and I yell out “This water is full of crystals”! I reach down again and this time pull up a huge pyramid shaped crystal which is visibly emanating rays of energy. We are all amazed by this. I wake up.
I go to take my photographs and receive a photo of the sun that looks like the energies coming out of the crystal in the dream.
Hands Across the Water :
Today is the gathering of people along the shores of the Gulf of Mexico to protest the horrific actions of selfishness and greed that have killed our waters and all sea life. Hundreds of people line up hand in hand wearing masks because of the horrific toxic smell. They come with open hearts filled with love for our once beautiful waters and all of life.
I have been blessing the waters with my own prayers and ceremonies. We all can do this from wherever we are.
Suddenly it came to me. The dream was showing the healing power of the crystals helping to create and balance crystal clear waters. I am shown we should put our love and healing thoughts into our crystals and place them in the Gulf of Mexico.
May our beautiful water heal and return to her natural state and may all living beings live free and thrive in their natural home.
When one wound heals through the power of love Heaven rejoices.
Healing energies rise up to Heaven
and love and grace and forgiveness reign down upon the land.
I posted this image called Mary Magdalene and the Holy Grail on my FB page by Marius Michael George
The next day I took this photograph in my backyard. I have been photographing these Christ Consciousness light emanations for the past few years.
To me the similarity is astounding.
Next I was visited by a hawk who came as Messenger to prepare me to be awakened at 4am the next morning to receive an important message.
Mary Magdalene Message
I am here in a myriad of ways. I stand with you and for you. Much is being repeated in your lives and in the world. Your awareness is magnifying the breakdown of the old and through the cracks in the breaking apart, your divine awareness shines the brilliant light of divine evolution.
As you have seen my divine soul signature made manifest, so it is that your own divine soul signature manifests out into the world creating love, balance and healing.
The changes shall continue. The awakening shall shake and wake each and every soul. Your own personal integrity, each and every single thing you do and say is now magnified in ways that are changing everything. The scales continue to tip back and forth and in more and more drastic ways. Therefore that which must fall shall fall and that which must rise shall rise.
Be ever vigilant in loving thoughts and actions for you shall be pushed and prodded to lose patience and to feel overwhelmed. You are divinely supported by the many. You are considered courageous and most beautiful.
We are ever at your side.
These things that have come before, lives, situations, people, places, everything, all add up to one thing, your own divine soul signature rising up. Your divine soul signatures are creating the beautiful colors and vibrations of love and consolation that are moving your world through this time of chaos and upheaval.
Meditate upon this.
Call it into being.
See it and feel it and most of all live it.
I speak now as a form of encouragement for I sense your weariness but also your fortitude and dedication.
All is well and all shall be well.
Love is everywhere.
This is a story of the way nature heals. This is a story of what love can do. And this is a story of magic. I was having a very rough day and I was in tears. My husband knows that the beach is everything to me. It was the end of a long day and we were both tired. He said “Come on I’ll drive you to the beach.”
The moment we got there the dolphins arrived and they were very close to the shore. We rushed over to where they were and I was immediately filled with such joy. We watched as they swam out to sea and marveled at how this happened the moment we arrived. I wish I had time to get my camera to capture the moment but it happened just as we placed our things on the sand.
As soon as we got into the water to swim I turned and saw the most beautiful rainbow and then we noticed there were two. Double Rainbow.
Then I felt something under my feet and reached down to find a rock in the shape of a heart.
I took some pictures of the beauty that was happening all around us. Sometimes the pictures come out blurry for no reason but that is when the magic shows up.
Nature is the healing balm. Love took me out of my sorrow and brought me to the sea. Magic is everywhere.
I am blessed.
The day my father left this world he left in mid sentence as he was talking to me. Thus began a new world, a world I knew nothing about. And it was a different world then or so it seemed. The world seemed safer but how could that be? We lived in a murderous world even then, a world of assassinations and our young boys being maimed and killed in Viet Nam. It was the beginning of the news being broadcast into our living rooms and that was shocking and horrifying enough.
Could we have ever imagined the continued atrocities we as a nation and the whole world would continue to live through? As we make our way through our own lives and our own personal shocks and losses we as a collective grieve for our brothers and sisters all over the world. We grieve together. We pray together. We try to make sense of the senseless together.
We are weary and grief stricken. We are finding ourselves in a world that is filled with hate and violence. These things have always existed but we are here now living at this particular time, each and every one of us. How do we turn anger and hatred and fear into love? How do we have hope in our hearts in a world gone mad?
Maybe we need to be kinder. Maybe we need to be more loving. Maybe we need to stop judging even the small things. Maybe we need to pray more than ever. And maybe we need to always believe that the beauty of love must be more powerful than any act of hate.
We are living in an extremely powerful time. This is why there is so much going on. Is it a fight between good and evil? Yes it is. As the powers that be continue to try to weaken us through acts of terror we have within each of us a particular gift waiting to be expressed. This is the time to go within. This is the time to bring it forth. Whatever whispers you are hearing about your soul’s purpose, listen. Bring it forth!
Nature soothes and heals and resonates with our true being. Use everything you have, prayer, music, meditation, healing, children, animals, your loved ones.
This particular, individual, unique, personal, sacred gift has an unimaginable power. This gift will emerge and merge with every other magnificent gift and the magnitude of this will change the world. It is changing the world. The time is now.
We will continue to pray and we will continue to hold our center. We will be our highest and best spiritual selves. We were made for this and we shall continue to remember who we are and why we are here.
In deepest sympathy for all enduring such heartless suffering.
May love and peace one day prevail upon this earth.
This has been a day of healing. This has been a day of waking early to go through a kind of life review while trying to go back to sleep. As all these events passed through my mind I felt all the emotions of each event. I could not fall back to sleep and I was already exhausted from lack of sleep from the day before. Loss of sleep mostly always results in a health episode that is very unpredictable.
The next thing that happened was seeing a Joan of Arc post I had written last year on this day. I did not remember writing it but I remembered immediately that Joan of Arc had passed through the parade of events I had experienced in the early morning hours. This was starting out to be quite a day.
Right after that I came across a post from a well known author and found that she has had a chronic illness for thirty years. So have I. As I read through her posts discussing all the aspects of what this entails it struck me.
Here she was a successful writer, writing all these beautiful books and articles and posts and just as easily discussing her life with this illness. She talked about being thankful that she is a writer and can write from her bed when all she can do is surrender to the bed. She talked about being too ill to write at all. She talked about being unreliable in not being able to show up at the last minute. She talked about all the grace that can be found in an experience like this. She talked about wanting a cure and the surrender that must come when one does not come. She talked about healing without being cured. She talked about it all. She talked about me.
So here I sat, tears flowing with several invitations in emails that I must answer, beautiful invitations that I wish to attend but know that I may not. And here I sat with events coming that have been a dream come true for me and prayers sent up to please allow me to feel well and attend. And I realize so deeply how I have been trying to hide in a way from just being the whole of who I am and speaking the truth of what needs to be said.
I have put a terrible pressure on myself and caused myself more suffering in the worry over how and if I will be able to be present to things that mean so much to me and to the people that mean so much to me. I am facing today that I find it embarrassing to have to speak the truth of why I may not be.
I have been wounded by judgment and opinions and I have judged myself harshly as well. My work is within the spiritual community. I want to be out there. I love what I do. I have surrendered over and over and I have risen to the occasion when I thought I could not. Truth is I would rather be the person who rises to the occasion no matter what because after all that is what a divine feminine warrior does or so I tell myself. It is also true that I rise and resurrect myself every single day as every person with an illness like this knows.
So why am I writing this? I have written on the subject of illness before including the higher spiritual view but this is what I have been dealing with on the down to earth every day level. I am writing because this is what I do and this is who I am. I am a writer. I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a grandmother and a divine feminine warrior. I am a million things rolled up into one wild, dramatic, sensitive and very funny girl. I am also an open book about just about everything so it was time to face this and let it all out. I am writing this to heal the shame that I am facing today. I know that this whole day has been divinely guided and I try my best to be awake and aware to what I am shown.
What I deal with every day physically is a huge part of who I am. I have a belief and a knowing that nothing is what it seems and all is for a higher purpose but still we must go through it all here on earth. I am blessed beyond measure with a family who loves me and understands and has never made me feel less than for any of it. I have done that to myself. My closest friends know the very worst of it and I am so thankful for them. It is what I am to the outside world and my work that I have put this pressure upon myself.
I am a work in progress.
This was a big day with an opportunity for so much healing from the minute I opened my eyes. For this I am ever grateful.
More to come….