The Heart of Love

Prayers, Poetry, Divine Inspiration by Gail Swanson


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The Other Side of the Flu

 

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photo by Gail Swanson

I am now two weeks into it and slowly recovering. I have never been so sick. Several times my husband wanted to take me to the hospital. I felt I belonged there but intuitively knew not to go. I felt I was fighting for my life.

Each time I would lie down to take a nap or go to sleep at night a spontaneous life review would start. This was not at all pleasant and caused me great anxiety. There was no rest to be had.

Every single night I dreamed of my mother who passed years ago. One night for the entire night I dreamed of 911. The firefighters came forward and were with me all night.

A dear friend from our teenage years passed suddenly and unexpectedly. He was the same age as my husband. As we reminisced about all the wonderful times we spent with him we were of course made acutely aware of the fragility of life and how any day could be your last.

The next day was the school shooting in Florida.

As I felt I was fighting for my own life I feel these things that went on signify how close I have been to the other side during all this.

Perhaps because of my abilities to see beyond the veil I could see what was really taking place. I certainly did not see the reasons for it all but I do know that my mother and the 911 firefighters were helping me through this.

In fighting for my own life was I helping others who were fighting for theirs? Perhaps I was working with my mother and the firefighters to help those who were making their transition during this time.

I do know that what we do is never just for ourselves.

I feel for sure I passed through a Gateway. I feel for sure this was an exit point for me but I did not take it. I have never prayed so much for myself and for others.

I believe in the power of prayer.

I had powerful people praying for me. I asked for the prayers at the beginning. I knew I needed them.

I am in deep gratitude for those who pray for those in need.

I am grateful for my life.

May our prayers aid in some small way the suffering of those enduring such unspeakable tragedy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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The Great Awakening

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This is the time of The Great Awakening. This is the time of truths being revealed. This is the time where chaos in our country and around the world is designed to distract you from the most important work of all. A few weeks ago I was awakened early and began to have a life review as I was lying there trying to go back to sleep. This was the beginning of a day that revealed more and more. This was preparation for what was to come during Holy Week.

We are living the Divine Plan. How much we allow ourselves to see is a spiritual process that we are living and hopefully cultivating each and every day. I have had some undeniable truths revealed to me over Holy Week. This is a very powerful time. This is a time where we are being granted the grace to see things that are so incredible about ourselves, our world and beyond that it will take some deep reflection and time to assimilate lifetimes of information that have everything to do with our soul missions today.

Receiving spiritual truths is not an easy process. It is deeply emotional and takes your full commitment to see it through to the very best of your ability. This is when the Divine Partnership moves into high gear. You can sit around astounded and wait for more to be revealed but truly this is the time to take action and fully step into your spiritual power. This is a new step, one never taken before. This is a leap. This is the time. We are the ones we have been waiting for.

This morning I was led to my own story that has everything to do with my further awakening during this Holy Week. We all help to spark one another’s remembrance of who we are and why we have come. Perhaps if you read my story, as far out as it may seem, it will awaken you to more of your own incredible spiritual story. As I was guided to read it this morning I was given more much more understanding of how it all fits together and where I am to go from here.

I share it here with love.

https://gailheartoflove.wordpress.com/2014/12/15/911-and-the-crystal-stars-of-love-and-hope/


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Healing – I Am a Work in Progress

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This has been a day of healing. This has been a day of waking early to go through a kind of life review while trying to go back to sleep. As all these events passed through my mind I felt all the emotions of each event. I could not fall back to sleep and I was already exhausted from lack of sleep from the day before. Loss of sleep mostly always results in a health episode that is very unpredictable.

The next thing that happened was seeing a Joan of Arc post I had written last year on this day. I did not remember writing it but I remembered immediately that Joan of Arc had passed through the parade of events I had experienced in the early morning hours. This was starting out to be quite a day.

Right after that I came across a post from a well known author and found that she has had a chronic illness for thirty years. So have I. As I read through her posts discussing all the aspects of what this entails it struck me.

Here she was a successful writer, writing all these beautiful books and articles and posts and just as easily discussing her life with this illness. She talked about being thankful that she is a writer and can write from her bed when all she can do is surrender to the bed. She talked about being too ill to write at all. She talked about being unreliable in not being able to show up at the last minute. She talked about all the grace that can be found in an experience like this. She talked about wanting a cure and the surrender that must come when one does not come. She talked about healing without being cured. She talked about it all. She talked about me.

So here I sat, tears flowing with several invitations in emails that I must answer, beautiful invitations that I wish to attend but know that I may not. And here I sat with events coming that have been a dream come true for me and prayers sent up to please allow me to feel well and attend. And I realize so deeply how I have been trying to hide in a way from just being the whole of who I am and speaking the truth of what needs to be said.

I have put a terrible pressure on myself and caused myself more suffering in the worry over how and if I will be able to be present to things that mean so much to me and to the people that mean so much to me. I am facing today that I find it embarrassing to have to speak the truth of why I may not be.

I have been wounded by judgment and opinions and I have judged myself harshly as well. My work is within the spiritual community. I want to be out there. I love what I do. I have surrendered over and over and I have risen to the occasion when I thought I could not. Truth is I would rather be the person who rises to the occasion no matter what because after all that is what a divine feminine warrior does or so I tell myself. It is also true that I rise and resurrect myself every single day as every person with an illness like this knows.

So why am I writing this? I have written on the subject of illness before including the higher spiritual view but this is what I have been dealing with on the down to earth every day level. I am writing because this is what I do and this is who I am. I am a writer. I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a grandmother and a divine feminine warrior. I am a million things rolled up into one wild, dramatic, sensitive and very funny girl. I am also an open book about just about everything so it was time to face this and let it all out. I am writing this to heal the shame that I am facing today. I know that this whole day has been divinely guided and I try my best to be awake and aware to what I am shown.

What I deal with every day physically is a huge part of who I am. I have a belief and a knowing that nothing is what it seems and all is for a higher purpose but still we must go through it all here on earth. I am blessed beyond measure with a family who loves me and understands and has never made me feel less than for any of it. I have done that to myself.  My closest friends know the very worst of it and I am so thankful for them.  It is what I am to the outside world and my work that I have put this pressure upon myself.

I am a work in progress.

This was a big day with an opportunity for so much healing from the minute I opened my eyes. For this I am ever grateful.

More to come….

 


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Divine Healing Emanations for The Dark Night

Many are experiencing extreme emotions, feeling as if you can hardly make it through. The weeping can go on for days and the feeling that you are being taken through a life review seeing and feeling everything. As these new cosmic energies and emanations continue to pour in they are opening us to seeing and feeling and releasing experiences and sorrows that have been pushed down for ages. As painful as this is we are releasing lifetimes of grief and fear. An experience seeming to be coming from this time and place is triggering old unresolved sorrows, all unprocessed fear. It is an enormous process. It is a necessary evolution of where we are now and where we hope to be going. Weather patterns are expressing what we are experiencing internally and releasing. Nothing to do but breathe through it. Ride it out as we ride out the storm. As each emotion rises to the surface we are opening to more and more. This clearing, this release is a part of the process that can lead to great healing and great awareness.

As the insights arise about your life and you see each and every thing through a magnifying glass of grief, know that all rises for a great purpose. All is clearing the way for new eyes to see and a new heart to feel. Now through this process the emotional scales fall from our pineal gland and our DNA is lighting up and activating. We are being readied for the next step in our cosmic evolution. Allow it all to unfold for all is necessary. Those moving through this particular dark night are the ancient cosmic warriors of light. It is through the dark that the light shall come and it is through our own courage and strength that each of our own heart lights will begin to shine the way to a new beginning

photos by Gail Swanson.

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