The women were there every step of the way
we agonized, we cried out, we fell to our knees
the men were gone
fear had overtaken them
I can only speak for myself when I say
I had no fear
not for me
the unbearable witnessing
of such things done to him
you could only be with him
each step was mine
each time he stumbled
the weight of the cross
it was a mob scene
I saw nothing but him
I felt I would not live through it
such was the overwhelming feeling
of being one with him
and even in this
I know it was a comfort to him
for he could feel my agony
and he could feel my infinite love
so I walked this way of the cross
and I tell you in complete truth
I hung with him on that cross
and on that day I was aware
of somehow relieving him
in ever the smallest way
for I absorbed his sorrow and I felt his pain
and with all my heart and soul sent him
the radiant burning love
that was transforming within my heart
and this he felt
and this he understood
it is impossible to make known the bitter gall
of that most sorrowful day
for there are no words to describe
the depth of his physical suffering
and the agony and beauty of being witness
to his magnificent forgiving heart
only the glory of his Resurrection
could ever ease the pain
for it would take something so miraculous and divine
to fill your heart with light and love once again
it was an honor and a blessing
to stand with the women
the ones who saw nothing
but the truth of heaven before their eyes
and we lifted him with our prayers
and we sustained him with our love
and it was our faces he did see
in these most brutal and terrible moments
and the power of unspeakable acts
and the glorious message of forgiveness
burned in our hearts all the days of our lives
may this message come alive in your hearts
and may his life be testimony
of heaven and of earth
from The Heart of Love: Mary Magdalene Speaks
I have been taking these cosmic photographs for quite some time now. Today for the first time I brought out my crystal bowls to play to see if there would be any difference in the photos. There was. First I played one bowl and then took some pictures. They were so amazing I got my husband to play two bowls while I took more pictures.
Here is the message I received.
The power within is mightier than you can imagine. Thoughts have a vibration and a power that can harm or save. As the outer becomes more chaotic and nonsensical the inner should blossom as never before. Rise to the occasion. Lift and illuminate. Leave behind the old and worn and bring forth that which shall no longer remain hidden.
All is magnified. All is glorified. That which is visible to the world is of a particular vibration. The awakening of hearts and souls alters the vibration of everything. The awakening has only just begun. In conscious awareness keep your eyes and your heart on one thing only. The sacred truth that dwells within is made up of the sacred geometry of love.
Those that desire to disrupt this sacred love geometry have no power over those who dwell in the heart of love and truth. The journey has been long and arduous. Those who remain true to their inner knowing and their connection to the highest of realms understand the importance of who they are and what they must do. We call upon you to magnify everything you do.
Nurture yourselves as you nurture the earth. Feel about yourselves the way you feel about the earth. As you commune with her she awakens and partners with you in this cosmic loving endeavor. She revels in your love for her and responds in ways powerful and majestic. She merges with you and sends her vibration up and out and there the holy communion takes place.
We send you these universal messages to aid you as you move through these powerful and changing times. You are illuminating and magnifying your own personal sacred geometry. You are communing with the earth, the cosmos and one another. Whether you are called to seclusion or to move to a new geographical location, all is designed for the needs of the individual or soul group.
This loving exchange was magnified today by her intention to enhance the communication through the power of sound. This is an example of what we are trying to convey. Magnify all you do. Expect the miraculous for the miraculous shall soon become commonplace.
It has been my joy and my mission to share my connection and my experiences with the realms that lie beyond this world. I am blessed and deeply grateful for it all. It has been wondrous but it has also been what feels like the complete opposite.
This I believe is the whole point, to balance these extremes. The trials and the initiations can make you feel like you will not survive them. The love that you feel showering upon you and the messages and synchronicities you receive are beyond what you could ever imagine.
You live in a world that for the most part makes you feel you don’t belong here and you feel this every moment of the day. When you are in nature you feel you are nature. You breathe with the trees, merge with the mountains and dissolve into the sea. This is your true home on earth.
You know there is a higher purpose to everything and you look at everything on every possible level. Your physical body is like an acupuncture point on the planet and you are constantly transmuting enormous energies through your physical body.
You are struck by revelations that make you fall to your knees, both wondrous and horrifying, and you must go through the arduous process of assimilating it all into your physical body and your consciousness.
You know you came here to do this.
You know that each and every thing you overcome yourself, each kindness given, each thing truly forgiven, each act of compassion, each time you raise yourself up and start again, each and every single beautiful thing, you are changing the world.
The journey to love, the journey to truth, the journey to remembering the incredible divine beings we are was not meant to be easy. This is the life where all our past lives are coming forward. This is the shake-up. This is the turning point. This is the where and how we help each other and this planet.
I have seen firsthand, by the grace of Heaven, a person who to the outside world seems to be suffering, is lifting the lives of strangers thousand of miles away. What each of us does is magnified a million times fold by just knowing that this is not a possibility it is a divine truth.
As this journey continues, more and more I am so deeply grateful for those who travel this path, for it is true that knowing that even one someone understands can feel like a lifesaver.
Those that read this are my fellow travelers. I am sending a note of love and appreciation for every one of you.
can you feel the merging of worlds
can you feel the strength required
for times such as these
are you brokenhearted
are you holding your breath
the breath is our companion
on the journey
the breath is the wayshower
the divine wind of transformation
for every breath ever taken
has brought you to this time and place
This has been a day of healing. This has been a day of waking early to go through a kind of life review while trying to go back to sleep. As all these events passed through my mind I felt all the emotions of each event. I could not fall back to sleep and I was already exhausted from lack of sleep from the day before. Loss of sleep mostly always results in a health episode that is very unpredictable.
The next thing that happened was seeing a Joan of Arc post I had written last year on this day. I did not remember writing it but I remembered immediately that Joan of Arc had passed through the parade of events I had experienced in the early morning hours. This was starting out to be quite a day.
Right after that I came across a post from a well known author and found that she has had a chronic illness for thirty years. So have I. As I read through her posts discussing all the aspects of what this entails it struck me.
Here she was a successful writer, writing all these beautiful books and articles and posts and just as easily discussing her life with this illness. She talked about being thankful that she is a writer and can write from her bed when all she can do is surrender to the bed. She talked about being too ill to write at all. She talked about being unreliable in not being able to show up at the last minute. She talked about all the grace that can be found in an experience like this. She talked about wanting a cure and the surrender that must come when one does not come. She talked about healing without being cured. She talked about it all. She talked about me.
So here I sat, tears flowing with several invitations in emails that I must answer, beautiful invitations that I wish to attend but know that I may not. And here I sat with events coming that have been a dream come true for me and prayers sent up to please allow me to feel well and attend. And I realize so deeply how I have been trying to hide in a way from just being the whole of who I am and speaking the truth of what needs to be said.
I have put a terrible pressure on myself and caused myself more suffering in the worry over how and if I will be able to be present to things that mean so much to me and to the people that mean so much to me. I am facing today that I find it embarrassing to have to speak the truth of why I may not be.
I have been wounded by judgment and opinions and I have judged myself harshly as well. My work is within the spiritual community. I want to be out there. I love what I do. I have surrendered over and over and I have risen to the occasion when I thought I could not. Truth is I would rather be the person who rises to the occasion no matter what because after all that is what a divine feminine warrior does or so I tell myself. It is also true that I rise and resurrect myself every single day as every person with an illness like this knows.
So why am I writing this? I have written on the subject of illness before including the higher spiritual view but this is what I have been dealing with on the down to earth every day level. I am writing because this is what I do and this is who I am. I am a writer. I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a grandmother and a divine feminine warrior. I am a million things rolled up into one wild, dramatic, sensitive and very funny girl. I am also an open book about just about everything so it was time to face this and let it all out. I am writing this to heal the shame that I am facing today. I know that this whole day has been divinely guided and I try my best to be awake and aware to what I am shown.
What I deal with every day physically is a huge part of who I am. I have a belief and a knowing that nothing is what it seems and all is for a higher purpose but still we must go through it all here on earth. I am blessed beyond measure with a family who loves me and understands and has never made me feel less than for any of it. I have done that to myself. My closest friends know the very worst of it and I am so thankful for them. It is what I am to the outside world and my work that I have put this pressure upon myself.
I am a work in progress.
This was a big day with an opportunity for so much healing from the minute I opened my eyes. For this I am ever grateful.
When the hour nears
and you slip away
into the whispers
of the long and lonely night
the angels are guarding
and hear your silent prayer
for there are not many
who can stand with you this hour
but one appears
for she too can not sleep
for the time is at hand for the two
to be as one
united in their prayers
united in their past
like a river overflowing
with ancient stories to tell
slowly and thoughtfully
uncovering and remembering
comforting and understanding
as only they must do
for the secret that they share
is like a precious jewel
made of sacrifice and glory
and the sword of love and truth
There is a sacred energy that exists throughout all time and at the very root of it all there is a chalice. It is the chalice of love. The chalice of love is the vessel of truth, the vessel of acceptance and forgiveness, the vessel of the infinite, the vessel of you and the vessel of me.
And through the pain and suffering in our lives we must always come back to the chalice, the chalice of hope and redemption; the chalice of resurrection. This is our hope. This is our truth. This is our story.
I am posting this once again as it is as relevant today as it was when I first received it. At that time I had planned to write about my experience in Abadiania Brazil at the Casa of John of God however it seemed impossible to try to put into words what transpired there. This is all connected to Archangel Michael so in honor of his Feast Day I am sharing this once again.
I found that I was experiencing many parallels during my time at The Casa Don Inacio. The first one was upon my arrival and entry into The Great Hall also called The Casa. The Casa is blue and white and filled with pictures and paintings of Saints and Entities that incorporate into John of God’s body in order to do the healing work on the thousands upon thousands of people who come there. As soon as I walked into the Casa I became completely overwhelmed with emotion. There was a familiar feeling that can not be explained. I cried and cried.
When I stepped outside I immediately recognized this feeling. It was the same reaction I had when entering The Shrine of Saint Michael the Archangel many years ago. The shrine is also a place where healing miracles occur. It is also the place where I first heard a voice that was not my own. As I sat outside the Casa in the meditation garden I knew that these two places were connected and from that moment on I felt the presence of Archangel Michael.
This is a message from Archangel Michael I received on May 2, 2008. May it be of comfort and encouragement to all who receive it at this time.
The crucible has been carried by this family of light. It has been and continues to be carried for humanity. The time at hand is crucial to the spiritual evolution of not only your planet but of all time and space. For what shall now occur is the healing of the very wounds you carry. These memories, these programmings, that which is in the DNA, is being transmuted. This is creating havoc for the lower vibrating energies that are striving to hold on to what once was.
You are strengthening in spiritual character. You are growing in your own particular lives. For through the trials and tribulations, each time you stumble and rise yet again, you are enlivening and connecting to the energy of the Resurrection. This Resurrection energy is that which is transforming the all.
Understand the power of His story. Understand the meaning in your lives of His life, death and Resurrection…for it is your life. This is not meant to be a story of sadness and woe but a model of all that truly is, for within His life upon earth and His magnificent heavenly emanation, all that is, is represented. I speak of the tangible and real manifestation of the darkness that exists. It was shown and is still remembered for this story contains the meaning of all that truly is, heaven and earth made manifest in one being, born to live, born to teach and born to fulfill the prophecy that must be fulfilled. And born to die, as you would perceive it in your world, only to show that there is no death, only the brilliant light of Resurrection that transcends all worlds.
When you ask yourself why your life is such, understand that you have been shown your divine connection to the same story. The wounds are deep, yes, for as He suffered the wounds of and for mankind, so do you. But remember this, the wounds do not outweigh the LOVE. For although you carry the wounds, you above all, carry this LOVE. This infinite, Heavenly love, that which you shared with Him on earth and continue to share with Him in the realms of Heaven, is seen now through your earthly eyes as a disappointment in the actions of humanity. You wish to isolate yourselves from the hurts and the disconnect of those souls who have also come to play their part. This isolation shall come to an end for as he walked among them, touched them and healed them, so shall you.
You must now embrace the story. You must now embrace your role. Do not run from all you have been shown for there is a most Heavenly reason for all that has transpired. For there is no time and as all is repeating or paralleling, you make your own way to not only your own ascension, but the ascension of your world and beyond.
Is this of comfort to you? I think not, for these are just words and you have become accustomed to hearing these scenarios. The truth shall not remain hidden. The time is at hand. Begin to live the prophecy of love. Come out from behind your worldly eyes. Look up! Breathe in the sanctity of your Heavenly mission and see with the eyes of your soul. All this takes is the body and soul willingness to integrate and resonate the completeness of who you are.
Breathe in the spiritual encouragement I am offering. Bask in the light of the Resurrection for it is this light that shines upon your path and it is this light that lights your soul’s remembrance. Walk with assurance. Know you are blessed. Hide no more from all you have been blessed to remember. Remove all self doubt for it is only this that prevents you from the completion of your soul’s journey. The lower energies that conspire to lead you to think negative and powerless thoughts have no power over you, unless you weaken and pay heed to them. Concentrate on your heart light, your love light and the light of the Resurrection of all. For you are this light.
As truth continues to rise and magnify all past hurts and suffering call out night and day and merge with the suffering of today. You thought it was over. You thought you dealt with it. You understood it. You forgave it. You released it. But the stakes are higher now. The truth is more truthful.
There is no rest in the night nor distraction during the day. Everything that frightens you, upsets you, angers you, worries you, confuses you, obstructs you, is rising up with a vengeance.
This is the fall down the rabbit hole, the seeing with magnifying glasses, a gut wrenching, hair pulling, cosmic boot camp.
How strong are we? Pretty Fucking strong.
How aware are we? Pretty Fucking aware.
The tears we weep are so ancient we feel there is no end.
The prayers we whisper are holy and sanctified and heard.
We are not alone.
I can feel all of you.
And you feel me.
We are unified in truth.
As we continue our deep work within, the veil continues to thin. The veil continues to thin during this time on earth to open our hearts to much much more. To free ourselves from what we think is. For what we think is, is an illusion. And who we think we are is a speck of who we are truly destined to be.
These beautiful emanations of love have come to heal us of our ancient wounds and lift us to a place of peace and unity and comfort, for they are the Comforters.
These emanations resonate with every cell in our bodies and spark a remembrance of truth in our hearts. Gazing upon these colors and shapes is like listening to a beautiful symphony, one so beautiful it makes you weep. It is a symphony of love and truth and remembrance.
This is the next cosmic step.
This is the merging of worlds
Breathe it in.
I have been reminded at this very moment in time of a magnificent event I was blessed to witness. As my best childhood friend was in hospice and her passing was eminent I visited her late one night. I was sure she would pass in a matter of hours. Her words were garbled and she was in and out of consciousness. However the next morning she was sitting up bright eyed and lucid and wearing lipstick. I was so astounded by this incredible awakening I asked her what had happened. She told me that the angels came last night and that she spoke with them. She asked them to give her more time and this they granted her. I immediately got my journal and wrote down everything she said as she rose out of a very drugged and weakened state and spoke perfectly eloquently.
“The angels were looking at me and said, mind, body, spirit, thought, were to be together these last few days together. It is very possible the angels said, we could be together even though we don’t declare that we want to continue living in the physical form. That’s ok. Every day is anew, there is a penchant for that.
I told the angels I am best with both. I won’t be crazy when death comes. I am best with both…living and going.
The angels were happy, they felt miraculously happy, miraculously happy, that you are happy and free, that I was happy knowing that even every minute counts, that everybody mattered in my life.
I heard you last night Gail. And when I go I will touch hands with Mary Magdalene. And when I go, the spirit world will open up to you and what will be will be and you are going to be sanctified, unbelievable, and everything will be the second world for us. But for now our world is here and that is why we cry. “
May we all open our hearts to the second world for the time is surely at hand.